Under Mama Mary's Embrace

Dearest Raya,

Days ago, I chanced upon a Shrine in Sucat, the Our Lady of Miraculous Medal Shrine. It wasn’t planned at all. It was an impromptu stop, but somehow it felt like I was meant to be there.

Remember, Raya, when I was pregnant with you?

We always prayed together, and whenever I had the strength, we attended mass. I always felt that Mama Mary was embracing us. Deep inside, I knew you were a gift from the heavens. A child wrapped in grace, a blessing sent to me.

When I asked who my spiritual guides were, Mama Mary came out twice. That’s when I felt in my heart that you truly are an angel. That you were always connected to something divine.

After I gave birth, my doctor gave me prayer cards and a miraculous medallion. She told me to hold on to my faith. And today, standing inside that shrine, I knew it wasn’t a coincidence at all. It felt like Mama Mary wanted me there.

Minutes after leaving the shrine, I saw a post online. A story about how the Miraculous Medal Shrine healed a baby with a difficult condition.

That’s when I realized:

This is a shrine of miracles. And maybe God brought me there to remind me that you are with Him… safe, protected, loved.

While I was there, I prayed so hard, Raya.

I prayed for healing.

For strength.

For wisdom as I try to navigate this painful new chapter of my life.

I lit candles to honor all our loved ones who have gone ahead, including you. I asked God to take care of you, my love. And I even whispered to your Ninang Vienna in heaven, to watch over you too.

When I found out about your passing, the song “Immaculate Mother” kept playing on my iPad. I didn’t press anything. I didn’t search for it. It just played again and again. I got goosebumps… but maybe it was God and Mama Mary comforting me, telling me that you’re okay. That you’re held in their arms.

Raya, I didn’t feel afraid when I carried you. I was so happy. So blessed. I was excited to hold you… excited to care for you… excited to love you beyond words. And I still do. I always will.

I thank God for giving us Mama Mary as our guide.

For reminding me that love never ends.

For showing me signs that you’re safe in heaven.

I love you always,

Mommy 💗