Your Final Earthly Goodbye

Dearest Raya,

This was your internment last Nov. 9, 2025. 🥲💗

The day we gathered to give you your final earthly goodbye. I stood there holding a microphone, trying so hard to speak even though my heart felt like it was breaking all over again. Behind me were flowers, so many flowers — all given in honor of you. Whites, pinks, reds… all surrounding your little resting place.

It was beautiful, but it hurt so much to see.

I spoke for you, my love.

I spoke because I wanted the world to know how much you were loved, how much you changed me, how deeply you touched our lives in such a short time.

My hands were shaking, my voice was trembling, but every word came from a mother who would do anything for her child.

People listened, some cried… and all I could think about was how much I wished I was speaking at your birthday, not your burial.

How I wished I was holding you instead of holding a microphone. How I wished you could hear my voice not through heaven, but in my arms.

The flowers around you were overflowing. A sea of love.

It reminded me that even though your life was short, your impact was endless. So many hearts were touched by you, Raya. You are loved far beyond this world.

Standing there, I remembered every prayer I said while you were inside me. Every quiet moment we shared. Every dream I had for you. And I whispered in my heart, “Raya, I’m your mommy.”

It was the hardest goodbye I’ve ever had to live through. But I know you were there, my love. I know you were beside me, holding me, giving me strength to keep talking even when I wanted to collapse.

Your daddy was there.

Our families were there.

Love surrounded you, and me, in a way I will never forget.

I hope you saw everything from heaven.

I hope you felt every word, every tear, every flower placed near you.

And I hope you know… Mommy would go through that pain a million times just to give you the honor you deserve.

You are my forever love, Raya.

This goodbye was not the end — it was just the beginning of how I will carry you with me for the rest of my life.

I love you always and forever,

Mommy 💗☁️